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Today I am happy. Today was a good day. At work I chit chatted with my boss who I usually dont get along with very well. We talked about non work related stuff and it was comfortable. No double escals for me today. I usually get one a day which sucks but cant control. Also today I made this amazing document at work. It has all this complecated html. It is so hard to understand. A peer tried to show it to me but he knew it too well so he was going real fast for me to follow. So today we were slow so I tried it out on my own. I cant remember anything he showed me before so I started from scatch. Amazingly it was working so I kept going and finished it. It looks so good and its the exact way I wanted it. I was so proud of myself cause like I said it was complicated html. Its hard for me to follow that kind of stuff. I even went up to my boss and said hey come check out what I did. Like I said before I dont get along with him well so to run up to him and say hey guess what shows how excited and proud I was. I know its the small things that amuse me. He look at it and I showed him everything on it and he said , get this " good job shantelle". That made me happy. The best thing today that happened is a very broken important relationship got mended finally. I was supposed to go to a party after work. Like a home party where they sell various things. At the last minute it got canceled unfortunitally but I was happy cause that meant I could go to church like I usually do on a Sat night. Worship was amazing. Hasnt been that good in a very long time. They played one of my favorite songs which is everything by lifehouse. That song just always gets to me. Alot of what I wrote about in my blog before I quit writting in Aug of 06 had to do with this person and our situation. He was at church and after we went to cruise in his car like we used to. That was our kind of fun although dont ask me why. So we did. A few years ago we had a big falling out where he really hurt me right before he decided to move to a different city 2 hours away. He was there for 2 1/2-3 years then moved back about a year ago. When he was gone we never talked at all. When he moved back it was hard to go to church or do anything cause he would be there and we had the same circle of friends. So we crossed paths and hung out a few times but still awarkward. I comfronted him tonight about the situation and basically told him this had to be discussed and I want an apoligy before I could spend anymore time with him and so on . We dont need to get the specifics. His reaction was exactly what I wanted but not what I expected if he was the same person he was 3 years ago. But he surprised me. So based on that the friendship I informed him could continue but its like starting from scratch. I didnt want to lose his friendship. He is one of the best friends I have ever had and he is real important to me but I was willing to end it if things were going to be the same as before. So I am just thrilled that everything went well. This has been a great burden for years and I feel like a ton of bricks has been relieved from us both. So good thing the party was canceled. Anyway should go to bed so I can make church in the morning. Good night!!!!!!!!!