People should give me quarters for my thoughts I think

I hate mothers day. Never really had a good mother or a good consistant female role model in my life. Long story ! I have had many replacements like aunts, friends parents, teachers, managers, and members of congritgations. It really does take a village to raise a child. But none were the one I wanted so badly. Dont get me wrong I appreciated every bodies help but phone bill gets high on that day from all the outgoing calls when really only one is needed. I try so hard to hate her but I am really not that mean and I wish I was. I do miss her, how she used to be before stuff got bad. Was watching of course Little House on The Prarie the other day ( best part of getting off at 3:30 now ). It was an episode that just sparked a lot of those feeling and I just balled and was sad for the rest of the night. Dad gave me shit for not calling mom on mothers day . As far as I am concerned she can return my mothers day call from 2005 before she gets one for 2006. And thats the end of that. Talked to my friend Janine last night. She is a very good friend of mine since grade 2 on. She is getting married on June 10th . When she first told me that I told her that I was probably going to be in Thialand. At that time that was the plan but we all know how thats going. So I get to go to the wedding . Yeah!!!!! I am so excited. Last night as we were talking she got quiet. Then I knew it was comeing. She said " Can I tell you something that you can keep a secret?" . Me " Of course!". Then she said it " I was going to ask you to be a bridesmaid before you mentioned Thialand." There was a long pause . Janine was like Shantelle are you there. Composed my self and said yeah i'm here. She asked me why I was choked up and crying. I told it was good tears. I was so honoured beyound belief. Of course it is too late all the preperations are done and thats fine. It was nice to know I was first pick. Her other bridesmaids are girls we went to school with that I hated and they hated me as well. The first thing I wanted to do was call them all up and say ha ha. But I would never, that would be rude to them as well as Janine. I told Janine I had a feeling I was in the running but knew I wrecked it with the whole Thialand thing. But I would have never asked her cause that is rude again and I would have taken it to my grave. Janine knew thats what I was thinking and feeling. Wierd how if you know someone for ( holy shit ) 20 YEARS how you can tell what they would think or how they would react to certain things. Never the less we are just both happy that I am going to be there either way. Funny that she lives in Edmonton and I am going to Edmonton this weekend and she is coming to Lethbridge for her bridal shower. Just my luck. I took her bridal gift to her parents and had coffee with them so its all good. I just never thought I meant that much to anyone to be their bridesmaid. It made me really happy.

"If you want to be the popular one at a party, here's a good thing to do: Go up to some people who are talking and laughing and say, "Well, technically that's illegal." It might fit in with what somebody just said. And even if it doesn't, so what, I hate this stupid party." - Jack Handy